This year just wasn't it for me.
I had high hopes and big plans, shoot I even graduated high school this year. I'm the class of 2017 but 2017 was by far one of the worst years I have experienced. 
I have gained weight in a very unhealthy way, didn't got to my school of choice, had to endure drama at senior prom and literally sat in my house for five months during my gap semester. Now I know there are people who have had it far worst and I can't compare but I feel like at the age of nineteen I have fully lost control of my life. I feel like I am leaving in fear, expecting the bad, worrying about everything and literally have no idea what career path I want to take on. This is what my 2017 has looked like. 

Now some good things did happened this year. I graduated high school, got my first car and went to Barbados. So there were some light between the darkness.  I feel like if I told this to anyone they would be like think of this year as growth but the thing is that I didn't grow this year. I am still the same person that I am in 2016 and believe it or not I was much stronger in 2016. 

2017 was I guess rest for me. Things were pretty laid back and maybe I needed that because all throughout high school I have put myself in stressful situations. Maybe I needed this time to sit back and realize that I don't want to be the typical person who goes to college for four year, get myself into huge debt, find a job that is somewhat close to what I wanted and work the rest of my life doing that one job. I don't want that! Yes I am going to college but my college degree is my backup plan. I am going to do what I want in life and I am going to let my college years be the year that I grow and become a better person and to learn.  I'll be ok in 2018. 2018 will be ok. 



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Some of you may have noticed but for those who haven't I have another blog post using theses pictures. I decided to use theses photos because there was just something about them. I didn't really like them and it really symbolizes a point in my life where I felt lost and bored. I decided to use theses photos for a one last take on 2017 before I enter 2018. 

Now I don't like setting goals in the beginning of a year just to forget about them in a month but I start college in less then a week so I feel like I can actually achieve theses goals because I will be in a new enviorment.
Some of my goals include:

• Get good grades •Lose ten pounds • Learn to drive on a highway • Meet more genuine people• Grow my social media • Learn more about wrestling ( Long Story ) 
• Reach 100 followers on my blog Start a YouTube Channel

I feel like theses goals will help me just start over. Theses goals can help start to what I want to accomplish in the long run and to what will get my in better shape for 2019. 




Well that is my little rant on 2017! I hope you all have a great new year. Comment down below your new years resolutions.
I want you all to know that no matter what you are going thought just remember that you are not alone and you will get thought it.

Until Next Year,
Samara 

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